2009: Change

Change. That's it. Six little letters which have defined the last 365 days of my life. I don't know whether to blame it on my age, my job, or my God. A girl in her early twenties is bound to experience her fair share of change, right? But then again, full-time ministry is all about change. A church body, after all, is a living breathing entity. And yet, my God is after so much more than my comfort. He isn't about to leave things the same; especially if my growth and His glory are at stake. Here's how it went down:

The end of January I began taking guitar lessons from Dan Bingham. I'm still going! I probably could be further along, but even so I've come really far. I started out using my mom's classical but quickly switched to my brother's acoustic. I'm very grateful for the available guitars to borrow but look forward to finally purchasing one of my own soon!
I spent Valentine's Day with some single friends of mine. We enjoyed a home cooked meal and watched "Seven Brides for Seven Brothers" What fun!
In March, we said goodbye to the Acres. Jason spent a couple months overseeing the Stream and was set to take the position of young adults pastor but God had other plans. Jason accepted a job offer back in Elgin, IL. It was difficult to say goodbye, but I have hopes of visiting come 2010.
In March we also met the men who would become our young adults and high school pastors. Matt Vorhees and Martyn Gross.
April was the month of weddings. Paul and Jill got married April 4th and Rob married Beth a week later on April 11th. Add Easter the day after that and you've got one crazy week! It was such a blast and I had great fun celebrating with all my friends.
The pastoral staff plus a few other leaders went to the Catalyst Conference at the end of April. The conference wasn't anything I expected but it was a great learning experience. It was great getting to know our new pastors Ken Alvis and Martyn Gross as well as all the other pastoral staff.
Matt started as young adults pastor in May and my little brother graduated from high school! To celebrate, our family went on a spur of the moment trip to Disneyland and California Adventure.
In June, my high school friend, Megan got married to John. It was so exciting to share that day with her, having been friends since we were sophomores. The ladies of the Stream went through Crazy Love during the summer. It was a really special time. Every week seemed to peel back the layers as each of us took turns opening up.
(c)Kandid Camera Photography
July brought the Stream gals weekend getaway to Pismo beach. Such fun! It was a very special time with some great vulnerable moments. The end of July meant Spirit West Coast. Several of us from the Stream volunteered for Hope Christian Store in exchange for lodging, food, and entry to the festival. It's not a vacation; but the payoff is probably a lot more fun than a paycheck. I got to see David Crowder Band, Matthew West, Toby Mac, and (my personal highlight) Family Force 5!!!! It was the second time I'd seen FF5 and it was a BLAST!
In September, it was time for another wedding celebration. This time for Chris and Kate. It was a such a beautiful wedding. I had a lot of fun hanging out with two sets of Downses, the Binghams, and the Leveys.
In October, my schedule began to snowball quite a bit. Things were getting crazy but not too bad to have a little fun. Several of us went to see David Crowder play in LA. It was an incredible show. As a beginning musician I just wanted to be able to be front row and stare at them play. Their musicianship amazed me. As a believer in Jesus Christ, I just soaked in the beautiful sound they made with those instruments (and computers!). It was such a worshipful time for me as I contemplated how much more creative my God can be! I also had the wonderful opportunity to attend the 2009 Women's Retreat with RiverLakes. It was an incredible weekend. I arrived with zero expectations and left deeper in love with my Jesus. He really met me there and we did some business that was long overdue.

November continued to remain pretty crazy for me in my schedule. Between work, guitar lessons, accountability group, missional community group, and all the other random stuff, it was kind of crazy. But, believe it or not, December slowed things down. The Stream tweaked things a bit. We changed how we approached missional communities and we decided to move our gathering to Saturday nights (coming in 2010!). Between that and taking a much needed break from RiverLakes Women Bible Study, my schedule is much more manageable. I feel I have breathing room. I'm very much looking forward to next year and where we're headed now. Very quickly it was the holiday season. It was a pretty low key Thanksgiving and Christmas but it was good, nonetheless.
I was blessed to have a lot of housesitting jobs this year which allowed me to pay off my civic a few weeks ago! I'm thrilled not to have a car payment anymore and I'm already looking ahead to start saving for a new guitar of my own. 2009 was a good one; hello 2010!

My Life Soundtrack

I'm sure you've experienced that moment where a song comes on the radio or is played in a worship music set that speaks to your soul in such a tangible way that you know God orchestrated it. I've experienced that a few times the last couple weeks. These songs play as part of my life's soundtrack lately:

"Desert Song" by Hillsong United
"Fill Me Up" by United Pursuit Band
"Wait and See" by Brandon Heath

The other day I left work discouraged. It was a selfish kind of discouragement because the happy news someone else had to share highlighted an area of my life which is lacking. I suppose all of it wasn't self pity but a lot of it was. Anyway as I got into my car to leave, the chorus from "wait and see" was playing on the radio.

There is hope, for me yet,
because God won’t forget,
all the plans he’s made for me.
I have to wait and see,
he’s not finished with me yet,
he’s not finished with me yet.

It was among the most tangible ways God has ever met me before. It was as if He were wrapping his arms around me in consolation and whispering those words into my ear. "I'm not done with you yet, child. It seems slow but I know what I'm doing. Trust me. I haven't forgotten You." It was incredible.

in good company

Fortune 500 posted their list of the top 100 companies to work for. I'm proud to have my "alma mater," Build A Bear Workshop rank on the list at #94! I never had anything bad to say about the company while I worked there for nearly two years in 2006 and 2007.  It was such a special time in my life while I worked there from the very beginning of the store's opening. I got to experience grand opening and all the firsts that followed. 
The insanity of Christmas time, the slow days when school went back in session, and all the great benefits that the company showered upon us employees. We could never say we were unappreciated. It was a pretty sweet gig and a great season in my life. 
I'll never have another job interview like the one I had for that job. We were in the middle of the mall and we had to play some of the games that we play during parties. We had to show our love for kids and our enthusiasm. You definitely have to have a certain "something" in order to work at this place. It's possible to be the best salesman and yet be wrong for this job. Congrats Build A Bear!!!

creative itch

This is why I'm itching to learn a couple new instruments!


Back in grade school I took piano lessons and the last couple years or so I've been wanting to get back into it. I just haven't had the resources available. I've tried several times to use my old theory books to reteach myself to no avail. Come February, I hope to be on my way to playing again! I even have aspirations of learning guitar- which hasn't really been a desire of mine in the past. This all might fade like other attempts....we'll see where I'm at in March...